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ok..here i go again, since mel and yo were frustrated reading my last blog which was hanging..hahaha..sory dud!

so, we all went to kl..many things happen in one time..

first,

when we reach kl, the road we suppose to take to our journey was closed..

damn it.. then, i juz folow my frens car,since, i am buta jalan! serius weyh, aku mmg buta jalan..then, i folowed her car which was bloody hell coz she drove like hell..no offense weyh.. she gave signal juz a sec b4 she take turn?? can u imagine? after a roller coaster ride and few honk, we arrived!hahaha..finally..dat was d 1st sign~jeng jeng jeng..

after we park, we folo 1 of my fren bcoz he wants to draw money baby..hehe, i asked him to draw enough for me also..but he didnt, no heart feeling my fren..then, we went to d zouk, n u noe wat? it was about 11 and it was bloody early to enter d club..dats not d prob though, d prob was, 1 of my fren’s fren, had sum trouble with d zouks bonzer before..bt, we can wait until his shift is over, bt, jeng jeng jeng.. i forgot, i brought my under age fren plus his cousin… to enter the zouk, u have to be at least 21.. damn it! sorry guys..hehehe

the, the trouble maker(y) with the zouk bonzer said, he noes wer to go.. it was a very nice club..and he said d place is his..no age limit..and no trouble wit bonzer, i cudnt agree more, so off we go..

d club is located at crown plaza hotel kl, mcm bes jekan? then, in front of the entrance, we stop…hurmm..diz place looks weird, its rnb club, n y tried to convince us dat d club is good…so, we askd about d cover charge, rm40 each..kewl, bt a few of my frens did sum silly face and try to give me d sign of objection, bt i juz  buat x tau..then, we masok..

wowwwww! another big WOOOOOOOOOOOOO.. it was like in somalia men..

i dun want to be racist bt, seriusly, its like ..hurmmm..then okla,, i try to enjoy myself bcoz iive paid 40 ok..jgn bazir, then i ask (y) when they r going to switch off the light?? he said around 12..okla, i tunggu..

12 am

we sang lagu negaraku, lagu jalur gemilang, and tanggal 31..fuiyoo..semangat je lebyh..tp dlm club…min da buat muke..a’a pon same

so, i said, we finished our drinks, then we go somewer else.. so off wee go

vroommmmm vrommmmm

it was like sardin weyh, six people in kancil, and i tell u, 2 of them, r normal in size, another 2, r tall like hell, they sat in the back, min, okla size …., me? u noe la my size, i drove ok..

we went to asian heritage row.. we have to find a club which no age limit and afordable cover charge..hahha..since we lost 40 ringgit.. we walkd and stop at the loft..haih..i askd” bang, cover charge bape?? rm 40 female, rm 50 male.. damn it! i askd again, bang, sy bwk budak r, leyh masok x? xleyh r dik, malam ni susa sket, kalo kne rush kantoi, so i said, come on la bang, da pukol brape da nie..gerenti xde rush..then he said okla.. problem settled!

yayyyyyy!!! but oppsss….wat??? no money?? wat d hell??

panjang have 25 bugs, his cousin no money at all, and mel 30…

hurmm…i have few bugs, min oso and a’a… i xkan tinggal my frens kat lua and i enjoy kat dlm..xleyh weyh…susa hati..

then, after kite tong2 duit! cukop!! yayyyyyyyyyyy!! sume leyh masok.. so, kitorunk nari la sapai pagi…lupe nk ckp td, aku tetinggal kwn kat corwn plaze td, so, lepas tu, she calld n we met at mamaks… and salah sorang drp kami telah terbabas dalm bilik air, xleyh nk bangun beb..hahahhaha!

tulaaaaaaa………..padan muka!lepas makan kenyang2 we go our separate ways…mel, ikot..n tido ruma panjang…

then tghari 1 sept 2008

3 o’clock

i calld panjang…wey, kite gerak skang r, aku tunggu kat ali..

4 sumthin, still no sms no calld from panjang.. damn it! no credit

then, i went to d public call pnjang…bermula la episod…

rupe2nyer..bulan aku mengambang r!

mengambang x mengambang!

aku mmg xske org amik kesempatan!!

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa….kn da kene..

tp xpela…panjang wa syg lu mcm adik wa…

mel, wa pon syg lu mcm member,, lu bg wa cool down..

min, i pon syg u gak! i bleyh jd diri i ngn i..enjoy shalu

a’a, aku akn igt ko sapai bila k…

kazen panjng, jge diri leklok!

31 august.

wer do i start??

me and my frenz had planned for this event quiet awhile..

we decided, diz time we’re going to celebrate our merdeka’s eve in the club. since dat, our last merdeka’s eve celebration at the curve was horrible..crowded wit mat rempit and indonesian..i mean, not civilized one.

31 august 2008

so,here i go..i woke up at 730 am..which was late, becoz i have to be at the msu at 730..then, when i arrived, they r still der, so, tank god..i thought they left me already..before i forgot, diz is our koko activity and i was one of the biro.

the explorace went well though, eventhough, i have to admitt it, the management was really poor..it finished at 1 sumthin, i dun even remember, i was so tired, after i clean up things which biros job, then i went back home. the minute i want to sleep, i got a fon calld,

someone’s on the fon..my housemate calld me..then, with d sleepy head,  i pick up d fon..its a male voice, and i cant recall whose voice is it..i juz want to hung up and go to bed becoz i was to lazy to layan.. then, i askd, who r u?? then he said, symel..ok..thank god, if it wasnt u, i must have hang up dude..then, i asked him to join us tonite, he cudnt agree more..

so, i went back to sleep..after a few hour, i woke up, n calld my fren and ask them wer to meet..

i felt so lazy to dress up..bt, i cnt disspoint my frens..so, first i have to pick up my frenz in s.alam,then, we went to kerinchi to meet my other frens.

then, we went to kl, with 2 cars, i stop now! tetibe xde mood nk tulis

wah..da lame x tulis blog.

bykk bende nk citer..

smalam aku bace buku yg ditulis olleh adik sheikh muzaphar b4 die meninggal..

sedeyh. b4 aku bace, aku x tau pon ade brotherhood yg rapat giler..

yg pastinye bkn mcm aku ngan abang aku..

bacelah buku tu..gerenti nangis

2nd, on 16th april had my final exm in klang hosp,

i was 3rd candidate,the last one la

from the last lucky draw, i was not so lucky, bcoz wat i gt was ms kes(musculoskeletal)..bt, mayb god gave dis 4 a reason.. so i didnt tought of changing it..

i more into neuro case..more towards functional actitvt..

but dats ok.. en. bahaman(lect) told dats ms cases will examined by 2 examiner, one is uitm lect, the other one is physio from other hosp.he told dat he himself going to be examiner on 15th.. on 16th was en.adnan..shit! i started to curse..from wat happen last sem, he is the last person i want to met.

16th april..1st to call was vaharli coz she was the 1st candidate. after awhile, one of the physio came and told she perform bloody well. she told that vaharli was full of confidence when she was assessing the patient.. i said to myself…i dun hav to be good like her, i juz need to pass! dats my main goal..

after 1and half hour, while me and ijan practising on special test, ultt and oso force our brain in remebering dermatomes.. ijan told me, kausar, relax la, buat biase je..jgn cuak, kalo ko cuak aku pon cuak..x yah la study, kite relax je.. and i told him, yala, buat biase je…suddenly, the door open and ijan was called, i juz wish him luck and dun be nervous..next is my turn..

around 11 en,adnan called me.. i entered the gym, he ask me to check the pt. card..

the pt. already sat there, my heart started pumping faster.but i juz act cool..control macho kunun…and then, i saw ijan..he looks frustrated..i dun hav time to think bout dat, i need to focus on my case..i opened the card and saw the diagnosis.. low back ache..

damn!can the doc be more specific..no time to curse the doc..

i started assessing her…damn..nothing, pain, spasm,tender

fuck! i then did the special test SLR and SLUMP TEST eventhough there no complaint of radiating pain… but both test result were positive for hamstrings tightness..

i treated her..all going well..then came for the oral test..

i need to ans exminer ques..en.adnan was pushing me so hard with the ques..at 1st, i had my point and i argued and gave all the reason.. en.adnan still dun wan to lose..he kept pushing me until i gave up.. i juz kept quiet..

last, i asked him, abah, did i pass??coz i thought of failing.. then, he told, on my side, u pass, but i dun no the 2nd examiner side..

hahhhhh..such a relief..

i went back to quarantine room..n shared wat i went trough juz now..

then, came pembantu physio, she told me not to woory,, from the marks given, she said alhamdullillah u can hav a nice sleep 2day…

yay!! ive pas my exam!

3yrs ive been going tru so much..ups and down..

problem wit the lecturers..prob in clinical posting..

fuckin tired of all this shit..my mom can relax now, she no need to beg me to stay in finishing my physio.. a lots of pressure..

but 1 thing, i dun like certain uitm lect, there not very professional.. among them, they will said like..kausar belagak coz die anak sedare en.hashim..eventhough they never talked to me and can judge me as being  kerek.. the last thing i want people to know is dat i am en.hashim niece..i never told any lect..and a few of my fren knew..

all the lect, alwaz came up to me and asked, u ni anak sedare en. hashim eh? i dunno how they knw..i barely see my uncle, and if i saw him, i kept running away, bcoz i noe this thing will happen..

eventhough uncle hashim is very good uncle, if we bump into each other coincidencely, he alwaz asked about my study, if i was ok.. if any prob juz come to my office or whenever u r free..he is so fucking nice..

finally, i completed my dip in physiotherapy in 3 yrs, no extend!haha

now, my next move to MSU. i hav my dreams and goals and i want to make sure all dreams and goals will be achieve before im going into 30..insyaallah

tears…

air mata??

hari nie, spatutnyer plan ktorunk nak g picnic..but we all woke up late so x jd.. actly, aku da bangun around 10 sumtin but i went to bed again..

few hours later, someone knocked my door n told me dat my bro call..

i said 2 myself..wat again..last week he had an accident..

wat cud happen dis week..not again.trouble!

i went downstairs n picked up the fon..

i said hello to him..n he asked me how am i doin?

i said, im ok, just woke up..i asked him wats up?

he started to burst the tears out..i asked him..wat happened bro?

he told me dats hes warded..i asked him, for wat bro?

he said he is sick..i startd felt wrong bcoz, kalo sakit2 biasa, he wudnt cry like this..i asked him again..

his voice stucked a few times..he said that he has heart disease!

omg!i was so shocked..hes young, hes only 23 this year!

he never smoke too..i told myself to be calm..dont cry

but my tears start flowing when he said hes all alone..

i said, bro dont wory.. i asked him, wat actly happen to his heart? because there is alot of possibilities.. mayb atherosclerosis, arteriosclerosis, thrombosis,or embolism..he said he didnt noe, and i said wat medication they gave to u? he said anti-thrombosis..i said ok!..dun wory, they will take care of u!

my hand was shaking..i hung up..n i started to cry, GOD! please help me..my parents is not here..they went for haj.. i dont know wat to do…i start calling people..1st person i called was my uncle.. i felt relief, but i cant stop crying..2nd person was daia!

the reason i wrote dis blogs not becoz to show off my feeling or wat..juz to share with u guys who have ups and down with ur family members..

i’ve been there n done dat..esply wit my bro, he is totally diff compare to me..im so keras..but he is so like anak emak! b4 my parents went to mekah..i never spoke to him since sep! we have an issues..i once sumpah die macam2..i benci dier..n worst xnak ngaku dier abg da..

but then, afta my parents gone..i felt like dis is the time..

we were ok since then, he alwaz called whenever he free jus to ask about everythings..

last week he told me me that he had an accdnt, he asked me to deposit money for him..i said ok..n he also ok

but today, i realized dat i luv my brothe so much and nothing cant change it!even we had ups and down.

to my bro naufal,

sorry 4 everythings ok..

dun wory ok esp bout wafi..i’l take care everything

everythings gonna b ok..

luv u!